You are unfinished and perfectly made. ~ Aluel Bol Kuanyin
I've shared a little lately about how with all the change in my life going on at the moment, and the bravery required to get out and do my own thing, well, it's taken a little toll on me.
As someone with anxiety and depression at the best of times, it's no surprise that I've wobbled a bit lately. But still, each time it comes back, it takes my breath away.
I'm sitting in such an odd state - I'm SO excited to be putting MY OWN offerings out into the world. My Winter retreat (the dream retreat I've always wanted to go on!), my monthly unwind workshops, new classes of my very own that I'm building under my own name... this is a dream come true and so exciting.
But in the next second after excitement, my belly drops, my breath catches, and that old f&cker fear comes in and sits on my shoulder. What if no one comes? What if I fall flat on my face? What if what if what if? (You know exactly what I'm feeling, right?)
It's absolutely terrifying to be visible, to step out onto my own. But still, I'm doing it. Because for me, over the last few months I've seen how powerful it is when people walk their talk - and when they don't. And it was time to step up, and share kindness, and share ... realness. We're all just trying our best, and hopefully if that resonates with others, and maybe they feel a little less alone, well, that's a pretty great outcome, right?
So today - despite my depression, and after a pretty solid week in bed with tears and fear - I'm going out to meet a friend. I'm going to hit publish on this blog post. And I'm booking the venue for that course I've been wanting to book for ages.
Because for all our fears, and all our imperfections and anxieties, we are all perfectly human. Unfinished, yet perfect. xo
PS I'm kicking off another Yoga Teacher Mentoring program this March, because you are powerful when you walk your talk, and YOU DON'T HAVE TO DO IT ALL ON YOUR OWN. Let me know if you'd like to be a part of it xo