In class we've talked a lot lately about how we face the moment. Or rather, how we do anything to avoid the moment if the moment is a bit sticky. We numb out, we booze, we eat all the chocolate, we exercise or have sex, we scroll for hours on facebook - anything to avoid feeling.
It's odd to think we run away from our own pain when we look at how we treat our friends or our loved ones when they're in pain. We hold them, we are there for them, we sit with them. But for ourselves? Let's get the hell outta there - is often our first response.
Imagine if our kids misbehaved and we just got up, got out, and never forgave them. Called them failures. Banished them. Ouch! Yet we do this to ourselves over and over.
For us Western-peeps, it can be a steep and lifelong learning curve - to be there for ourselves. It's like that quote that says "In a society that profits from your self doubt, liking yourself is a rebellious act."
It's why I started Filter Free Yoga - so we could share the honest truth of what it is like to be.. us.
It's why in class I talk about my depression and sadness, along with my wins and my happy happy joy joy moments.
It's why I talk about how I used to numb out the pain of being alive by boozing and partying through my 20's, and how I don't drink anymore, and I'm more alive than ever.
It's really only when we try it on - try on the honesty, feel the hurt, and come through the other side - that we honestly realise and know from first hand experience that this stuff won't break us. Your heart will not break by feeling pain. In fact, it will burst open and connect you more than you ever realised.
This is why I'll keep being honest and open. Are you keen to try it on as well? XO